But at the same time, I completely understand why it's happening, because the internet is not a good place for the Jewish neshama - even when it's doing such sterling types of outreach work and Torah sharing as ShiratDevorah.
As time goes on, more and more of the people with better middot are moving away from the internet, and closing down their Facebook accounts, and trying to peer around the corner to figure out what a world where youtube and twitter is history would actually look like.
We're not quite there yet, I know, but I also find it very difficult to believe that 'internet' as currently configued, and 'Moshiach' can really go together.
But what that means, tachlis, is that most of the people who are still bashing away online don't have such good middot, and / or are addicted to the medium in not such a healthy way.
(If you're wondering which category I belong in, let me end the cliffhanger now: BOTH!)
I also have moments, and days, and weeks, when I also just want to say 'sayonara' to blogging. What keeps me going is God.
In my hitbodedut, I get a lot of messages to just put my head down, and to keep blogging about real stuff, even when I have no idea what's really going on in the world, on both the micro and macro level.
God constantly reassures me that it's OK that I sometimes don't know what I'm talking about (because I never try to pretend otherwise...) And that it's OK that sometimes I write and act like a pig (because hey, who doesn't, at least occasionally...) And that it's OK that sometimes my yetzer is actually writing the posts I put up (although hopefully, I spot the worse offenders pretty fast, and try to take them down again before too much damage is done.)
I guess sometimes, I must also write helpful stuff along the way, or else I know God would have pulled the plug on my blog a long time ago.
But the point is, it's really not easy to keep going, sometimes, trying to put out real, yirat shemayim stuff that's actually helpful on some level.
Because the internet is a spiritual 'dead' zone, and spending too much time there - even for really good reasons - often makes me feel completely ucky and cut off from so many of the good things in life.
So that's also why sometimes I rail against it so hard - despite the fact I'm still here. And also why I encourage you, dear reader, to TURN THIS THING OFF AND GO AND DO SOMETHING USEFUL AND SOUL-GRATIFYING - even though that'll impact on my viewing figures.
As soon as God is ready to take us - me - round that 'internet-less' corner, I'm there!
But in the meantime, I - we - are still stuck in this pre-geula world, trying to make the best of what is often some really hard circumstances, and trying to keep our heads above the rising tide of muck that you find just about everywhere these days.
But in the meantime, finding 'good' stuff to read online is getting harder and harder.