You might have noticed that it’s pretty slow posting this week on Emunaroma. A big reason for that is that I feel like my sense of certainty has evaporated at the moment.
I feel like ‘something’ is happening, because I’m walking around feeling like ‘something’ is happening, and I can’t seem to shake that feeling off or get away from it. But at the same time, I have nothing to back it up with other than a feeling, and I don’t want to start churning out my own brand of pseudo-prophetic rubbish just because I’m feeling pretty weird at the moment.
So I’m generally stuck about what to say, and what to write.
Also, I’m having the odd physical symptoms I typically get when we’re a week or two away from some new war, or a new outbreak of terrorism, or a new spate of supernatural forest fires. Again, that could be pseudo-prophetic rubbish, so I don’t want to go making a big deal of it, because I’m SO not a prophet or anything approaching it.
But at the same time, every time I get like this, a week or two later ‘something’ seems to happen.
All this uncertainty is doing my head in. In theory, I have so much I could and should be getting on with, but in reality, I seem to have slipped back into that feeling that the world is about to explode again. I so don’t want to be in that space, having spent the last few years’ trying to just live in the moment and to stop waiting for Moshiach to show up and fix all the problems in my life.
Yet on some level, I seem to be back here again, and I’m not sure what to do about it, except wait around and see if ‘something’ really is about to happen, or it’s just another false alarm.