It’s amazing what four days without internet activity can teach you.
It can teach you how much of your time is being sucked into a pointless blackhole of ‘predictions’ and doom and gloom stories.
It can teach you how many of the people blogging are actually flat-out crazy (naturally, I include myself in this category).
And it can also teach you how so many of the things that your yetzer has you convinced are SO important, really aren’t.
Top of that last thing is pointing out flaws in other people, and especially, other groups of Jews.
I came back from Uman, scanned through all my usual sites (I have about six I regularly check) – and realized that most of them just put me in a bad mood. Ok, Sky News is no big surprise.
But I’m also so sick of reading long screeds having a go at other people, and other Jews, on Jewish blogs, too.
That’s part of why I was very hesitant to ‘protest’, formally, the rainbow stuff, but after a lot of praying and contemplation, I could see that standing up for God’s honor demanded some public protest.
But part of my hesitation is that when you start criticizing another group of Jews, even a group that is doing such awful things, that just opens the door to sinat chinam and more criticism, and more ‘troof’, and more finger pointing and blaming.
And that’s all so pointless and damaging!
Because as I keep trying to emphasize, the only people we can really change, the only people we can really influence, is ourselves.
So, I scanned through the blogs, saw things that made me feel pretty yucky, and went to do some hitbodedut about it all. Because I want to be part of the solution, not part of the problem.
Being part of the solution means trying to pull Jews together, trying to see the good, trying to put the emphasis on God, and not on guns, or politics, or other ‘strength of my right arm’ tactics that only end up back-firing because they are rooted in a complete lack of emuna.
That’s the stuff I want to be writing about, that’s the stuff I want to be reading.
Uman always gives me a pause for thought, and a chance to re-evaluate what I’m really doing with myself, to see if it’s heading in the right direction. BH, over the next few days that process will play out again. Each time it does, it’s useful.
And in the meantime, the next few days I’m going to re-blog my posts about the differences between ‘luminaries of fire’ and ‘luminaries of light’.
Because while they look superficially similar, one lights up the world and leads to the geula, while the other just leads to destruction.
ON A SEPARATE NOTE: Since the 'we protest' blog went up, Weebly has been blocking my automatic posting function to Facebook. Just curious if this is a 'coincidence', or if any other of the bloggers who protested last week are also experiencing this issue now?
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