There's nothing you can really do for a broken toe. In Western medicine, they just buddy-tape to the next toe to try to keep it straight as it mends, and tell you to rest up and stay off your feet.
That toe took ages and ages to heal. It got to the stage where I'd pretty much given up on it, when one day I woke up, and everything was miraculously back in place: the strange bump in the top of my foot (where the toe bone had been forced back on itself) was gone, and so was the pain.
I put the toe incident out of my head, and didn't think about it again until I started learning about Kidney meridian. In Chinese medicine, Kidney meridian is considered to be the deepest energy meridian of the body, and it's also the repository of a person's will to live, or what you'd call 'koach'.
Kidney meridian is associated with a bunch of various things in the body, but one of the main things it governs is bones. What all this means practically is that when the energy in the Kidney meridian is weak, a person is then much more susceptible to broken bones.
Knocks and scrapes that you'd ordinarily shrug off start to break you, literally, when the energy in Kidney meridian is impaired, because your vital life-force is very low, and you're physically and spiritually very weak.
One of the things I love the most about the energy medicine stuff is that it's really like solving a murder mystery, or something, trying to piece all the different bits of the puzzle together.
The next thing I learned is that the main negative emotion that governs the Kidney meridian is fear. Chronic or constant fear and anxiety is probably the single most damaging emotion a person can have.
Let's start putting all the pieces together, to see why I broke my toe last Adar:
Last year, I had a really tough year. At the time I broke my toe, we'd been through an extreme cash crunch just prior to selling our house which meant that were days I didn't have money to buy food.
We'd just come out of that situation, but my emuna had been shaken to its core. I was feeling very scared about the future; about our finances; about our forth-coming move to Jerusalem; about our new business (which subsequently failed, but that's another story) - and most days, I was functioning on zero energy.
I literally felt emptied-out at the soul level, like I had no more strength. Physically, I could still get up and do things and cook and walk, but mentally and emotionally, I was completely finished.
Now, I see that all the fear of 'what will be', and about what had just happened, literally drained away all my life force, and left my Kidney meridian really, really depleted.
Small wonder that I broke my toe dancing around my kitchen, and that it took so long for it to heal up.
So what would I have done differently, if I'd known then what I know now?
Firstly, I'd know that if I felt so empty inside, that I'd urgently need to take steps to jack my energy and joie de vivre back up. Physically, I would have held the acupressure strengthening and sedating points for Kidney meridian, and also sedated Triple Warmer (the home of the yetzer hara) and strengthened Spleen meridian (which produces the 'happy juice' for us). I'd do this at least twice a day, until I started to feel I had more koach.
Next, I would have tried to work on my emuna that it was all coming from G-d, and all for the best. I think I tried to do that anyway, but realising that my fears were literally starting to kill me would probably have spurred on my efforts.
Lastly, I would have tried to have a lot more compassion for myself, and the difficult situation I'd just been through, and a lot more gratitude for the message G-d was sending me, via my broken toe, to slow down and start to care for myself more.
At the time, I experienced the toe much more as a punishment than a kindness, but G-d really is only good. I just wasn't at a stage where I could recognise it.
So if you're suddenly breaking toes or fingers, you should know that G-d is trying to tell you something: work on taking all your fears back to G-d; hold your Kidney meridian points; and be much kinder to yourself. G-d loves you SO much - and He wants you to join Him.