I tweaked it, rewrote it, tweaked it some more, then started contacting literary agents to see if anyone might be interested in helping me get a book deal. I mean, I have a blog… I've been writing for years… How hard could it be to get published?
The answer is: pretty darned hard.
Apparently, I need 25k followers on Twitter and 100k readers (minimum…) before anyone will touch my book with a bargepole.
The good news is: I'm 2% of the way there.
But I realised, I need some help. I bit the bullet and signed up for Twitter (which I still so don't get, btw) - but I can't bring myself to do Facebook. Even the thought of befriending 4000 people online gives me heebie-jeebies.
So now, I'm back to the same question I've been wrestling with for years, already: does God want more prayer to get me bumped up to a big readership, or more effort?
Let's be clear that before I started my blogs and new business, I'd spent approximately the last seven years ONLY praying. I had a huge reaction to my first business going down the toilet (with very little prayer and huge amounts of effort), and I felt like 'prayer is the only way to go'.
It worked OK until my husband quit his job to join me in that approach a couple of years' ago - and we ended up going completely bankrupt and having to sell our house just to buy groceries.
I'm still in the process of picking through the aftermath of being hit by that spiritual tsunami, and I still haven't been able to draw any fast and hard conclusions, except maybe for one: I'm clearly not at the level where I can just sit on my couch and still be able to buy my cheerios.
So I at least got that message, and I reacted by trying my best to 'do' more.
But I seem to have come full-circle now, facing that same problem that's dogged me for years. If 'all work' wasn't the way to go, and 'all prayer' apparently wasn't the way to go, what does that leave me with?
I know, you're going to say 'the balanced, middle way', but as we've already discussed, balance is SO not me. But apparently, it's going to have to be. I guess I'll have to carry on doing the odd six hour prayer session, and then carry on finding random people on Twitter to connect to.
Unless you have any better ideas?